angelbabiau

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angelbabiau

May 14, 2017

It's Been Awhile

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Where have I been?

I guess life got busy and I slipped into a creative funk, still struggling with the latter actually. We have had a major lifestyle change... ditching city life 2 years ago for the mountains of Northern Idaho. We are off-grid and doing the homesteading thing. It's not a prepper thing, just a much simpler and healthier way of life...away from MOST of the drama. Lost our 2 teens out of it... they didn't appreciate a year without communication. Daughter went back to Australia and Step Son back to Utah to his Moms. Down to 3 boys now, 17, 13 and 10. They thoroughly enjoy it

and that makes life so much easier on us.

Anyhow.... Looking forward to getting back into it all and I hope each and everyone of you are happy and well.

Leenie

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angelbabiau

Oct 12, 2009

Feeling Alive

4 min read

I also took my oldest friend back to the airport this morning.He texted me as soon as he got off the plane in SLC Friday night and My Daughter texted me right after... saying Tom had got home finally (after much hunting drama) made it home.Instant relief for me. I had to ask favors to go pick him up because a passenger didn't want to deviate off course with Tom. I thought it would be hilarious for two guys decked out in all their hunting gear to go pick up my bestest gay male friend without me. friend would have seen the humor in it...as would my other half but no.... it was all about the passenger!! LOL.

Anyways... even though hubby was exhausted and sick, he graciously took us all on a little trip late yesterday and I got to dust off the camera. That highway will soon be closed off for the Winter but I wish I could be dropped off for a day up there, to just wander and take pictures. I feel passionate again about this and I feel very happy to be alive and very loving towards all of the people that mean the world to me.

There is no better feeling than to love...doesn't matter what it is..or who they are, just to

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angelbabiau

Jul 7, 2009

Crawling Out Of The Hole....

3 min read

Feeling better once again...so thank you

Been tracking down people from the past, mainly my mums friends and it's been really lovely catching up, It's been forever...20 years in some cases but that's the beauty of Facebook. I miss the old days, the carefree days. Life seems to dramatic lately, through no real fault of my own but somethings you just can't help. Shit happens, usually for a reason too...but yeah, I'm finding a way to deal with it all.

Spent 4 nights in the mountains for the 4th of July. I really enjoyed it, we all did. It was well over a year since we last hit the great outdoors, for more than a day. My photography has suffered in that time but I think I got a few good shots away, nothing fantastic but it's a start at least.

Can't believe this year is half way over already....slow down!!!! LOL.

Leenie

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angelbabiau

Jun 28, 2009

Complications

3 min read

Nothing has been going right for quite sometime...I'm at the same stage I was 10 years ago...only it's taken me half the time to get back here again, to the point where I can't see any real way out. I can't talk to my other half....I think we hate each other actually and just this past week, I was more than willing to sacrifice everything I have ever believed in....just to make this work.I'm giving in....I don't yet know exactly what that means but all I know is, we are not exactly friends anymore and I don't feel as though what I was planning to do would really make things any better. I can't take the drama anymore. Ignorance is bliss if your the one giving out....

Basically what I am saying is...until I find myself again, I'm never going to be me, I'm never going to be creative. I feel like I can't be happy...ever. The happiness I had is gone forever and even though this is stupid to say, I feel so alone right now.

This is all amplified by being thousands of miles from my own damn country....my family and what few real friends I have made in this life.

It's all dark and gloomy but even though I can't see it yet..it will pass.Right?

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angelbabiau

May 24, 2009

:)

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I didn't know they made it easier to change your journal CSS hehe.... learn something new every day

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Where have I been? I guess life got busy and I slipped into a creative funk, still struggling with the latter actually. We have had a major lifestyle change... ditching city life 2 years ago for the mountains of Northern Idaho. We are off-grid and doing the homesteading thing. It's not a prepper thing, just a much simpler and healthier way of life...away from MOST of the drama. Lost our 2 teens out of it... they didn't appreciate a year without communication. Daughter went back to Australia and Step Son back to Utah to his Moms. Down to 3 boys now, 17, 13 and 10. They thoroughly enjoy it :) and that makes life so much easier on us. Anyhow..

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Feeling better once again...so thank you :heart: Been tracking down people from the past, mainly my mums friends and it's been really lovely catching up, It's been forever...20 years in some cases but that's the beauty of Facebook. I miss the old days, the carefree days. Life seems to dramatic lately, through no real fault of my own but somethings you just can't help. Shit happens, usually for a reason too...but yeah, I'm finding a way to deal with it all. Spent 4 nights in the mountains for the 4th of July. I really enjoyed it, we all did. It was well over a year since we last hit the great outdoors, for more than a day. My photography has

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